I graduated college, had plans to travel and a few classes to finish for the summer and I knew God had made a promise to me He was sure to fulfill. I was and am still… WAITING. Maybe He would open a position to work right where I’m at? Maybe He would send me to a new state? Maybe even to a foreign country?
The worry of the unknown turned into sleepless nights and restless days. Two months had gone by and I had barely slept and there are two things I don’t do well with:
1. No sleep
2. Unstructured plans
Two months without sleep is a long time – especially for a girl who can’t function well without a good 8 hours of sleep. So, after two months I was feeling…. defeated, to say the least.
I collapsed on the top of my stairs, laid on the floor and broke down in tears. My body was weak, I could no longer think clearly and I said to God “I need rest and peace like yesterday, please. I can’t do this anymore”.
I just imagined Him saying right back… “well, I’m so glad you asked”.
I have slept just fine ever since but why did I reach a breaking point before I could find rest in my waiting? Why didn’t I just ask?
Open my calendar and at any given time you will find my days planned hour by hour for the next full year. That’s true, except when the time is being withered away and God has not answered. I was worried day and night about what my future would hold instead of holding on to this promise:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
I felt I needed plans set in stone so I could rest instead of trusting my security in God and resting in what His word says.
Life is filled with waiting periods and I wanted to share this to encourage someone who is in “the waiting”. My hope is that you may find rest too. Maybe you’re waiting for a spouse, maybe for a job or opportunity, maybe for children or … (fill in the blank).
All I know is that this one verse worked for me and I know it will leave you with a peace that surpasses understanding if you are facing restlessness in a waiting season:
“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” Philippians 4:6-7 MSG